finally cut my hair... haven study yet.. actually quite short la.. haha.. dunno how 2 style it.. ltr bathe den learn how 2..haiyo.. i guess fr tml onwards me no long goin 2 write anythin here.. gtg le.. bb

havin a bad headache!! todae mornin woke up quite early... suppose 2 go join yong xian 4 breakfast but rainin veri heavily.. SORRY.. i nt purposely de.. den after tat go study lor.. saw e so called GOOD LOOKIN guy.. erm.. ok la.. cute lor.. lay koon said me face quite black.. black sure gt reason... cos... erm.. stupid reason... cos he nv come... stupid rite.. ya.. y shld i be upset??? he's nt my whoever ma... hai~~ den study finish go home.. den go 2 grandmom's house... quite borin lor.. watched 2 dvds.. den me and my gal cousin tokin on e staircase.. haha.. i was lookin at my hp.. my australian cousin tot i was msgin my bf.. HAHA.. as if anyone msg me at tat time.. actually i found tat my tat australiam cousin look a bit like xiao an fr e side way.. maybe cos of his haircut...

tml goin 2 cut hair... dunno whether will be nice anot??? but sure cannot tie de.. haiyo.. headache.. since in coffee bean til now... i found out another thing.. whenever i tink of good things.. instead bad things happen.. y??? muz i tink of only bad things???? hai... head realli veri pain..

realli tired of alot of things.. studyin (but is my responsibility so muz still do) and tinkin good things( cos they rarely, and i realli mean rarely, happen)

things tt i hope can happen: able 2 open up 2 u (quite hard lo), enjoy myself throughly when go out and i wanna go BEACH.. realli.. tok abt it so long le, but nv get e chance 2 go..

guess wat i realli wan now?? 2 be given a hug.. haha.. ltr get fr my sis or my boister or pillow..

HAIYO.. MY ENTRY KANA DISAPPEAR!!!
hai~~ need 2 retype again.. recallin... lazy 2 recall.. wan 2 noe den ask me lor.. haha

haiyo.. todae wake up abt 11 sumthin or 12.. 4gt wat time wake up le.. den go coffee bean.. wait 4 lay koon and poh hup... haha.. lk say i quite fierce.. no lor!!!! me focusin la!!! nt used 2 him being there.. but wun need 2 used 2 cos i tink todae will be e 1 and only time he come.. haha... haiyo.. todae u say wanna call me.. but.. erm.. still e same... nv.. so i can 4gt abt u callim back... cos u sure BZ rite... haha.. todae first time study physics ok la... only tat POH HUP keep wantin 2 borrow my notes.. i noe u smart.. dun make me even more stupid leh!!! me veri stupid lor... haha.. but e good thing he there is tat i will somehow realli do my work.. cos 2 prove to lay koon i'm FOCUS!! haha.. i nt actin lor...

hai... todae like almost whole day stomach pain.. drink cool water even worst... now drinkin hot tea... AH!!! so bad... they go watch initial d... hai!!! i can only blame myself cos i dun wan 2 go mah... guess when 2 july come, i will be watchin initial d alone :( nvm.. 2JULY i'm waitin 4 u.. and i promise tat 4 tat time 2 be a good day.. i will be even more focus in studyin esp my physics.. i try... tml another day of studyin... dunno whether sunday gt go studyin anot.. but sure go cut hair... hope e hairstyle suits me.. haha.. me go play game le..

todae is e openin of initial d.. and i WUN be watchin tml!! nvm.. study and study lor.. y u nv call back??? i realli wonder isit u 4get or wat?? hai~~~ nvm... me a bit used 2 it le.. i doubt u even remember i ask u 2 go out durin july... hai!!!

last nite went joggin wif sis 2 serangoon garden.. go eat ICE-CREAM!! i realli love e mango flavour.. i sure will eat tat flavour whenever i eat tat ice-cream.. haha.. todae went 2 hougang point's coffee bean 2 study wif lay koon.. this nyjc guy approach her 2 solve a chem qn... but she dunno.. haiyo.. nvm.. u realli muz eat u noe!!! i muz repeat this again.. STRESS WILL CAUSE U 2 GROW FATTER!! so eat constant meals... hungry MUZ eat... can't wait 4 exams 2 be over.. 2 july sure go out de!!! even if no one wans 2 go (touch wood!!) i oso will go out de!!

.. todae did more studyin in e library den yesterday.. maybe cos of e music ba.. thankz poh hup!! good fren lend me his i-pod.. i wun spoil it de la!! haha.. but tml maybe join lay koon 2 study.. nowadays realli have nth 2 type.. maybe cos like go studyin these few days.. so sorrie 4 this borin blog entrys..after exams sure will have better blog entrys.. gtg le.. and LIM LAY KOON pls relax hor...

yesterday nite din even study!!! OMG!! juz felt lazy 2 study.. den spend so much at e cafe in e library!!! goin 2 broke le.. juz now called e hairsalon 2 ask whether karen is workin todae.. but.......... she is off til saturday!!! so shld i cut on sunday?? any suggestions?? i will wan 2 go 2 her cos she has cut a similiar hairstyle 4 my sis last time.. so shld i wait til sunday and cut??? dunnoe.. haha..

juz finish walkin... haha.. suppose 2 be joggin wif lay koon de.. but my stomach pain.. so walk all e way.. me oso lazy la.. so long nv jog le.. first time jog-cum-walk wif lay koon.. she pespire til her shirt oso wet.. she blur leh.. ran 2 camilia hse.. haha.. den ran back.. we tok abt lots of things.. but after e walk, both if us still need 2 study!! but she realli mug leh.. lay koon take care of ur stomach hor... me go drink more water le..bb.. JC STUDENTS CONTINUE STUDYIN HARD.. POLY STUDENTS, i guess u all have projects goin on liao.. so jia you hor!!!

why is tat when ppl leave sec sch most of them change alot?? esp those who goes poly.. he said is cos of e ppl u study and work wif... ya true.. gt nth 2 say.. juz feel tat some friendship wun be loosen in some ways.. haha.. me oso change.. somethings tat i do now is quite diff wat i did in e past.. but 1 thing will nv change!! i still dun like SCIENCE.. haha.. haven study physcis yet leh!! play game time..

haiyo!! seems like its nt a good dae 4 me.. okok.. juz a minor thing la.. yesterday have headache.. now have slight flu.. half studyin half blowin my nose.. hai~~ so troublesome.. mornin did maths tys lor.. spend almost 2 hrs on 1 chapter!! nvm.. muz continue study!! after doin e tys.. watch e eys 10 dvd.. nth much lor.. haiyo.. my stupid nose keep actin up.. feel like cuttin my nose off.. but ltr how 2 breathe???

goin 2 study again ltr.. of course la!! like left only 1 wk left!!

TO JC FRENS: WORK HARD!!
to lay koon: u sure will work hard de la.. so WISH U WORK HARDER DEN NOW!! but muz remember 2 eat hor.. and oso exercise regularly..

tat's all..

a so-called shoppin dae.. ok la.. nt tat interestin.. bought underwears.. my mom realli shop realli veri long.. but.. erm... but ONE ONLY!! haiyo... den have dinner.. ate sushi lor.. haha.. my mom veri cute.. say she treat me eat a veri nice type of ice-cream.. dun realli noe e brand of it.. but it's sure NICE!! i chose mango flavour, while my mom chose hazel nut... mango flavour is REALLLY DELICIOUS.. anyone interested in mango ice-cream, look 4 me.. i bring u eat nice one de... haha.. realli lame la.. den go crystal jade bakery buy egg tart and lao pao bing...

reach home.. nt feelin well.. had headache.. but feelin better now.. found out tat i haven't been workin hard... cos lay koon is like bz STUDYIN!! lay koon!! u made me wake up my ideas leh.. 2 study harder!! but hope tat i wun stop swimmin... wanna be more tanner or at least maintian my tan...

me go watch tv le.. bb..

todae went swimmin again!!! tanner a bit more.. but.. haiyo.. legs nt as tan lor.. nvm i will still go swimmin!! oso hopefully can get new swimsuit.. haha.. hair now veri de dry.. aiyo.. need 2 condition alot now... nxt wk will be great cos 2 great movies r out soon.. initial d and alot like love!! both i wan 2 watch!!! den another great thing is tat my aunt and her family is comin back on e 24.. quite some time nv see them le..

rushin 4 time now.. gt 2 catch LOST!! ppl out tat, if u have nth 2 do on thursday.. catch LOST on channel 5 at 10 pm!! tata!!

yeah!!! i'm finally darker.. ok.. lame.. but is like finally lor... todae.. nv do much studyin.. have a big fight wif my eldest sis.. tat's all.. realli!!! my life is still e same!!! nvm.. nv expect a change at all.. being like this is good.. haha.. me lyin la.. okok.. realli nth 2 say la.. tata~

todae was a much better dae den yesterday.. except 4 1 thing.. mention ltr.. last nite get 2 noe somethings.. but i dun tink tat there will be a change in anythin ba... some frenz r juz meant 2 be frens.. true... but are there frens hu r nt realli frens??? tat i dunno ba...

k.. let's tok abt todae.. went 2 my mom's gym 2 swim.. swam more den yesterday... but i'm nt darker!!! nvm.. i juz luv e water there!!! damn clean!!! too bad.. my sis dun wan 2 go swimmin tml... i wan!!! so i guess i will be joggin tml nite lor... after swimmin, me sort of apologise 2 my mom.. so everythings back 2 normal..

went 2 j8... ate tie man shao... and desert.. den go watch mr and mrs smith.. quite nice la.. e endin of shootin damn fake lor... mrs smith is like so much more pro den her husband... she killed 312 ppl.. while he killed only 50 2 60.. does tat prove tat women r better?? dumb la..

ya.. nearly 4gt... wat made me piss off was when we went 2 pay our things.. my mom accidentally throw e singlets.. den e other woman.. eyes open damn big.. feel like slappin her la!!! i hate her esp her BIG eyes (no offense 2 ppl wif big eyes hor).. den she paid everythin.. her husband keep lookin at us.. i was realli angry.. so i kept sayin eyes open so big 4 wat??? den kana scolded by my sis.. she told me nt 2 cut like them... me juz cannot control my temper and my mouth... like wat yong xian said.. i realli need anger management..

haiyo... tml was suppose 2 be my class bbq... but in e end they say no more pits.. definitely la!! todae book.... how will have?!?!?! den say book nxt wk.. i wun go de lor.. is like if wan 2 have bbq, den at least book earlier... everythin like nv plan lor... haiyo... nth 2 say le..

my mom is still nt tokin 2 me... nvm... tok 2 me, juz 2 scold me.. dinner time oso nv help me scoop soup... nvm!! me scoop myself.. i den dun wan 2 waste energy shoutin at her... my sis wan me 2 say sorrie 2 HER mother.. ha! like nt my mother.. e more i wun apologise... i juz need 2 study hard, den get through uni.. den she can't control me le... wed supposed 2 be 1s4 chalet.. i wun ask her.. cos ask her sure kana scoldin.. so ask dad lor.. better results den askin her..

todae went swimmin wif sister.. haha.. she realli improve alot!!! but a bit slow la.. haha... i tot maybe can get tanner but nooooooooo... stil fair.. ah!!! hate bein fair.. tanner is so much better.. juz need 2 go swimmin more often lor...

me finally study other subjects other den maths le.. econs and clao... ltr MUZ study physics le..
tml muz study even more.. cos tml sure whole day at home.. oso need 2 be guai so as 2 can go 2 bbq.. haiyo.. me like study 4 goin out.. bad.. realli bad.. who ask me nt hardworkin like other people???

go play game 4 a while.. b~

todae went 4 dental appointment.. regular cleaning lor.. quite long nv go dentist le.. so quite scared.. even e dentist ask me whether am i scare anot.. haha.. den after he look at my teeth.. he say 1 of my teeth nt growin well.. i tot muz pull out.. he say juz go take x-ray.. go in this room.. wear a vest.. veri heavy!!! den go back 2 clean teeth.. e taste of the thing he used 2 clean my teeth quite weird taste.. after cleanin, he say i may need a operation... my heart suddenly stop a beat.. he say it is best tat my 2 wisdom teeth r being pull out... actually went 2 pull out 2 at a time.. den dun need 2 go back and pull out another one.. but... haiyo.. goin can take out $800 fr medisave.. den my mom's medisave dun have enuff 4 e 2 extraction... so bo bian.. need 2 go 4 2 operation... quite scared... e date alreadi set le.. i tink is 23 july... e dentist said wld have swellin, pain and bruises.. imagine go sch wif bruises... haha.. my frens sure say i kena hit by ppl de... haha..

need 2 go do hols assignment... and need 2 study study and study... hopefully wun fall aslp.. haha.. sayonara!!!

i feel so stupid.. i juz wan 2 take it back cos i wan 2 always 2 remember e memories... i realli hate myself... lovin u now is a stupid thing.. everything's over.. dun have put tat back thing to ur nick at all... wat u show 2 me is tat things r totally diff fr now... tired.. realli tired...

first time at gym wif ying sze.. funny lor she.. dunno how 2 use 1 of e machine.. haha.. me still dun dare 2 use e track 2 run.. so in e end use e bicycle thing.. ya.. oso saw liyun.. she veri slim leh.. legs damn nice lor... den do other exercise.. wanted 2 go of e open area 2 run de.. but in e end dun wan le..

hate e lecturer todae!!! my tutor.. waste so much time on LECTURIN student.. juz 1 student.. somemore say we r behind all e jc.. if u all dun keep LECTURIN us, den we wun be so behind de lor..

haiyo.. todae like keep typin haiyo... haha.. wanted 2 watch chase.. cos like quite sad de.. is like e guy in e past he liked this gal (linda) but she didn't like him so she said this " y dun u wait 10 yrs later?" after 10 yrs later they met, things happen (i dunno cos me nv watch 4 so long liao).. den now she's e leavin.. e guy say he will wait another 10 yrs... is like so touchin.. imagine someone realli waited 4 me 4 10 yrs.. i realli will be touched.. erm.. no one wld do tat 2 me.. me very bad de ma... imagine after waitin 4 so long, e gal is like gettin marry.. hey!! this is like a movie comin out soon.. 4gotten wat's e title.. but hopefully i will be able 2 watch it..

sometimes when force 2 4get things.. it is even harder 2 4get it.. juz wanna say this.. wo shi zheng de zheng de hen ai ni!!! haha.. this is 4 ying sze!!! haha..

go watch tv liao
bb

haha.. juz came back fr orchard.. went wif my sis and her bf... my sis ah.. bluff me.. say go j8.. den i anyhow wear lor.. den on e car she say goin cine.. den bo bian juz go lor... tot goin 2 watch movie.. but they say too late liao...so walk walk and walk.... den go eat chocolate cake... quite nice.. e chocolate in e cake is hot de.. den on e top of e cake gt ice cream.. nt bad la.. my sis tot i dun like.. cos i nt no expression on my face... but is i a bit tired liao... oso tinkin abt wat 2 do tml... haha.. me keep tinkin abt things tat r impossible... but impossible things will become possible rite??

den eat finish go 2 k pool.. actually me juz go there see them play de.. den they keep askin me 2 learn lor.. initially me wanted 2 wait 4 my future bf to teach me de.. but haha.. no need liao.. learn e basics liao.. arm gt no energy to shoot e ball lor.. den ok la.. in e end still able 2 shoot lor.. me only play 2 games.. actually have e mood 2 continue play but my sis bf need 2 go back campus and i tml need 2 go gym wif ying sze..

friday gt e most free time cos 10 finish lecture liao.. maybe see whether my class wan 2 go play pool lor... haha... wan 2 play more more and more.. me siao le la.. tml still need 2 wake up so early.. dunno whether able 2 wake up anot leh... better go slp le.. nitez!!

everydae 2 me is like e same lor.. haha.. go sch, come home, slp , watch tv, use e comp, den sometimes go joggin.. todae almost late 4 tutorial.. haha.. cos of e bus.. haha.. cannot blame ying sze.. hopefully tml will be veri early lor...

suddenly tot of someone in e past.. can't believe likin him last time was so difficult.. haha.. miss those crazy days.. better go dinner le.. ltr still goin out.. so tat's all.. bb!!

slackin dae!! haha.. mornin had conference wif tat old hag.. everytime she will sure have bad 2 say.. 4 e.g she asked us 2 stop watch those stupid channel 8 shows.. wah lau.. juz cos she can't really speak chinese, tat does nt give her e rite 2 say abt e shows lor.. haiya..

tired!! tired of alot of things... ytd chat wif my sis.. den wat she said make me wonderin abt many stuffs.. some wat 2 e negative sides.. no good.. but can't help tinkin.. can't write here cos e someone who's related 2 wat i tink wld be able 2 c..

goin 2 runnin liao.. nth much 2 say liao.. bb~

i have found my motivation le.. it is to HATE U!! mark my words.. i will!!! i will learn fr wat i've done tat past 4 yrs and do a better job in hatin u.. somethin have push me to this.. or i shld say somethin i saw... my first reaction was i'm goin 2 cry.. but i held it back cos is i'm e one hu wan 2 see de.. my whole body is full of hatred.. i will give myself 2 yrs.. by 2 yrs i will 4get u and change myself.. to someone u nv noe..

somehow i oso in a bad mood.. when i'm in a bad mood, it will make me do things better..

runnin or joggin has made me free somehow.. in a way, watever road or place i run is directed by me and me alone.. no one can lead e way..

1 more thing.. LAZY PEOPLE dun come near me.. lazy den dun do anything la..

2nd thing.. 4 now, i dun believe LOVE!!! all juz bullshit..

no more thing le..

weird thing is tat whenever i'm in a foul mood, listenin 2 loud music make things seem better.. like now!!! listenin 2 dunno wat LOUD music..

yesterday had a meaningful chat wif yong xian abt relationship and love.. 1 qn i ask him is tat will he wan a patch??? he said no.. cos a couple break up cos of e reason, when they patch, they will break up cos of e same reason.. i was like.. true leh.. no wonder me and ph keep breakin.. haha.. k.. stupid la.. den i ask if he believe in love at first sight.. he say yes but nv met tat before..

haha.. saw this
once you held my hand
and told me you'll never let me go
but now,
you left me all alone
in the rain..

this type of guys, quite a few around us.. something tat we said or something tat we promise someone, dun ever do tat unless u can do it.. i remember i broke a stupid promise.. i told him tat we wun nv break cos i dun wan 2 go through e heartaches.. but in e end i initiated e break up.. bad person i am.. or shld i say tat i nv meant 2 say in e first place.. juz 2 make u happy juz at tat time , and wan u 2 be sad now.. am i becomin veri bad??? i am..

todae was a great day.. actually tot will be stayin at home e whole day.. but when i ask my father, den he allow me 2 go.. haha.. supposed 2 go out wif ying sze but in e end go out wif jian ren.. haha.. we went 2 bugis 2 watch movie de.. but there have no interestin movies.. so went 2 ps.. den watch cursed.. e movie was ok lor... jr very weak lor.. haha.. some time pass only, den he feel cold le.. haha.. after e movie, he so cold.. den walk outside of ps 2 sit.. den after walk 2 taka.. 2 see hui nee.. me suddenly have e mood 2 buy clothes.. den buy a skirt and white tube.. fr wh.. haha.. jr oso bought a jacket.. when walkin in e shop, saw 2 nt bad lookin guys.. wear black de.. who knows 1 of them is jr fren.. haha.. buy finish go breadtalk buy bread lor.. den go home... after eatin hor, suddenly stomach pain.. now still pain.. jr say is gastric pain.. maybe ba.. i was tinkin tat will i be able 2 4get ph.. i ever tot tat if some guy wans be his stead, i will agree, cos i can 4get ph.. den jr say it is unfair 4 tat guy.. ya.. it's true..

quite like wh clothes.. so now muz start 2 save alot!!! me plannin 2 save $$$ and oso start joggin at nite.. saw his nick.. hate or love?? hate ba.. no point lovin.. to me, u r juz someone i wan 2 4get and even i see u on e streets, i will juz take u as stranger.. and i guess i will only see u 4 e bill payment.. after everythin is up, tat's tata 4ever.. cos we aren't even frens.. fr e start 2 noe, i still dunno wat is love.. stupid rite??? tats cos i nv put in e effort 2 love.. can't wait 4 time 2 pass.. den everythin will be juz a memory.. a memory tat lingers a corner... nv 2 be seen again...

but u taught me a lesson... tat i run away fr problems... u gave me a sweet memory.. things tat u done, have touched me.. u oso taught me how 2 treasure someone although i nv did..

some frens i wld like 2 thankz now... stupid ba, but there is a need..
laykoon~ u have been there in e past.. let me cry on ur shoulder.. realli thankz!! and oso reminded me tat i'm STILL fickle-minded.. thank you..
hui nee~ a friend indeed.. u are always there 2 stand up 4 me.. tokin 2 you is a great thing.. haha.. dun tire yourself in work or sch hor..
jian ren~ you r like a sister 2 me... haha.. kiddin.. someone hu i can tell things and problems 2.. work hard in poly hor!!!
sebas~ although it's been a long time since i met u, u have cared 4 me alot.. esp tat time when u called me.. thankz you lao pa!!!
poh hup~ although we r no longer together and nt frens, i thank you 4 showin concern and care in e past..
yong xian~ u allow me 2 open my heart 2 u and tell u almost all my probs.. and e advices u gave 2 me tat time we chat.. thankz alot.. i wun 4get u de la.. esp e $50 de.. haha
geraldine~ thankz 4 being concern abt me...
ying sze~ ur lameness and cuteness have brighten my day always.. thankz girl..
zhongyong~ my best kor.. chattin wif u is great cos u some how gave me advices in life..

tats all ba.. if i miss anyone, sorrie.. either sec sch frens or jc frens, u all made a impact in my life.. many thankz!!

haha.. i love geraldine's blog song!!! damn nice.. e lyrices r great too!!

TRUE by ryan cabrera
i won't talk
i won't breathe
i won't move till you
finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
that i don't look
but deep inside in
the corner of my mind
i'm attached to you

I'm weak
it's true
cause i'm scared to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart
keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing
thats true
so i will not hide
its time to try
anything to be with
u
all my life i've waited

this is true
you don't know
what you know
everything you walk
into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
its true
i'm just scared to
know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know
you met me?

I've waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing
thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited

this is true

i know where i go
I'll be on my way to you
the way thats true

I've waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing
thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited

this is true

lyrices realli veri meaningful.. haha.. last time keep listenin 2 ye zi.. now keep listenin to true.. haha.. mood finally relax cos e test are all finished le.. maths, physics and chinese oral.. oral gt 16.. ok la.. my standard grade haha.. nv see it gt above 16..

does people get lazy and dun do anythin?? even answerin a call and replyin a msg?? u make me weak.. or i shld say tat i'm WEAK!! haha.. its true... haha.. like e lyrics of the song.. haha..