slpy day... slp alot since i reach home.. haha.. todae was a day of tutorial and tutorial and PW!! ah!!!! sian ar... tml still have maths lecture test.. hope can pass ba... cos ltr den start studyin.. haha.. todae e 4th day he is still angry wif me... my fren ask me y i concern whether he angry wif me anot.. i oso dunno y.. but by e 7th day, i will try 4get everythin and lead my ever so borin life... haha... guess wat i miss abt us in e past??? the hugges... a hug can show alot of concern 2 someone...

this is wat someone send 2 me in a card:
A Loving Promise
Love is so important
To be kept at any cost
If you find it, guard it safely
To be sure it's never lost
Especially if the love you find
Is valuable and true
I've found it and i promise you
I'll take good care of you

is this true???dunno.. ytd me chat wif my sis.. she say tat once i have bf muz tell her... haha.. den she told me this.. u most probably wld find bf fr ur sec sch or jc... dunno.. i oso wan 2 noe is it true anot...

nth much liao... so tat's 4 todae.. =)

first dae of hols!!! but need oso e start of my make-up lectures and tutorials.. 3 periods goin through functions tutorial.. so borin!!! haha.. zy had this guy who gave him chocolate or somethin.. so gay lor!!! haha.. nt bad hor.. even guy like u leh.. u gt charisma ba.. haha.. den after we go eat delifrance.. me and ying sze eat alot... eat e breakfast set and den share 1 more set. cos we saw e soup veri nice.. ying sze damn lame!!! laugh like xiao xin... e more i see her, e more she resemble xiao xin.. haha.. den after juz walk around.. saw junyi... so dark.. she say she juz back fr sentosa.. den continue 2 walk.. den me and geraldine started tokin.. she asked abt things in my blog.. first time jc fren wld be concern abt me .. thankz geraldine!!! lk tinks i'm like pushin everythin 2 him.. den ok.. den i push everythin 2 myself.. everythin is my fault, all my fault.. i wun push everythin 2 him.. cos no matter wat happen is MY fault, k? i noe now i like veri angry le.. maybe ba.. this is e only form i can express my anger now..

ya.. me oso go develop pix on my hp.. gt wif diane, ying sze, cheryl and lay koon... quite big.. nxt time go develop smaller one..

i find e time in sr is quite gd.. in a way, i dun get angry tat easy den in bss... i tink cos my frens all quite crazy.. but only gt 2 times when i gt angry.. quite gd le hor... haha.. if in sec sch, u can see me like everyday get angry..

todae, found out tat cheryl and ji hui nt tat gd le.. geraldine ah.. u and cheryl hor.. tok tok den dun care abt ji hui.. haha.. i noe she is stubborn.. but overall she is still ok de... need 2 bathe le.. tata~~~

nt in a gd mood.. and y?? a veri s tupid reason.. cos he is still angry wif me ba... cos no matter wat i msg him, he nv reply.. maybe he is veri piss off.. sorrie... realli sorrie... wat u do wan 2 be do so tat u juz cool down??? dunno y i will react in this way.. jr asked if i still like him.. i realli dunno... i noe nuts now... temper risin.. juz wan him nt 2 be angry wif me.. but i doubt so.. my sis say tat i shldn't keep msgin or callin him.. cos tat will make some people even more fed up.. ok.. fine.. i wun do tat now le... cos no matter wat i do, u will still be e same... sad i am, but unable 2 show at all.. every meetin wif u around, i wld somehow be sad 4 at least a few days.. but.. i'm e one 2 made e final decision.. so i can only blame myself.. juz hope time can realli heal wounds... tired of be like tat cos i noe it is veri irritating.. get a hold of urself xiangling!!! stop being like tat.. now muz try 2 4get him and everythin abt us, by makin myself bz...

a tirin day.. todae have sch til 4.. den after go 2 bss sports day.. hai~~~ sorry k??? realli sorry... dun angry.. me nt purposely.. actually i feel he is a bit petty.. i realli accidentally tored his tat pink colour shirt or dunno wat.. sorry!!!!!!!!! at e beginnin i didn't notice tat he was wearin e shirt tat i bought.. funny thing is tat i dun dare 2 look at him at his face.. realli dun dare.. dunno y?? den after go chomp chomp eat wif jr, hn and shan... haha.. they dun dare 2 eat e oyster.. only i eat e most.. like pig hor... den this lady come over 2 us 2 advertise this perfume.. den none of ans her.. only hn.. haha.. den we go coffee bean drink coffee and tok.. actually nth much 2 tok.. shan still in her orientation mood.. haha.. still cheerin.. haha..den e whole time wif them.. i was tinkin abt alot of stuff.. everythin tat happen bet me and him started appearin in my mind.. cannot stop it.. den suddenly feel lonely.. ah!!!!!!! hate e feelin.. when i was cryin, suddenly my sis come in my rm.. she was oso cryin.. my mom said things tat made my sis cry.. den after tat i went out 2 say my mom.. den she come in and say me.. sometimes cannot stand my eldest sis.. e things tt she say, realli nv go through her PIG brain.. like 2 say things tat make ppl angry.. like ytd.. she told her bf 2 stop actin like her sis (who is ME), only her sis wld do such stupid things.. wah lau... i was damn fed up... sometimes feel like slappin her mouth.. she is realli too much.. den at e back of ppl back say ppl things.. as if she veri gd... wah lau.. look at e mirror la.. u r nt smart lor.. stop tinkin u r la!!! u r juz 3rd degree holder only!!! wat's e big deal???

haiz.. let out my anger le... i fr sad become angry and become juz rite.. tml still muz go sch.. sian!!!!!!! hols like nt hols.. 2 wks still muz go back 2 sch.. den e other days, muz study 4 common test.. i aim 2 get at least C 4 my 4 sub..

todae durin chinese.. me veri sad.. cos first time fail chinese test... den dunno y cry.. dunno is stress or wat lor.. but when i saw i fail my gp compo, me gt no reaction.. weird hor..

better go 2 slp le.. later tml cannot wake up.. nitez

a damn borin day.. nv go out.. my day was spent slpin, watchin tv and readin bks lor.. sian like anything... suppose 2 go out de, but me nt guai so nv go out lor.. hopefully friday i meet up wif my frens 4 dinner or so.. tml muz go 2 sch le.. a bz time again.. dunno when can get back maths lecture test paper.. hai~~~ y muz u tok 2 me online?? stop be so CARING abt me can?? i slp late or early is none of ur business lor!!! den y muz u msg me abt wat i ask on friday?? ask so much 4 wat?? i still dun get it... ahh.. haha.. 4get wat i wan 2 type le... nvm.. when i remember den i will type here de.. me go watch tv le.. bb..

a rainy day.. like my mood last nite... but todae fine le... i somehow feel tat his feelings 2wards me r so fake!!! stop showin 2 ppl tat u r so poor thing!! u r nt at all!!! tolerate??? there wasn't a need 2 tolerate!!! i realli regret in e past i went back 2 u!!! i wun make another damn STUPID decision.. thankz jr 4 lettin me realise this..

todae go check my econs mcq results.. fail!! by 1 mark.. hai~~~ hopefully my essay can help me pass... veri weird.. whenever i go out wif ji hui, i wld have stomachach and wan 2 go shit... hhaa.. brought rubber bands again.. now like have many rubber bands so i doubt i will cut my hair short..

to be continue later....

todae damn full ah!! morning saw hui nee cos she goin 4 orientation.. me veri naughty.. todae skip heats and ***.. haha eat sakae buffet.. tat ji hui ah.. make me laugh til my neck and shoulders veri pain.. den play game 2 c hu eat e fried veggies.. gt qing jiao!! xiao xin dun like de, i oso dun like.. den order wrong hand roll.. gt femented soy beans.. wah lau.. wan 2 puke... ji hui oso tried.. haha her reaction veri funny.. den we order ice cream.. veri watery!!! we eat til veri full... den go walk walk around j8.. quite relaxin la.. tell ji hui alot of stories.. fr wat i say, she tinks tat i like nv even like him lor.. maybe ba. i myself dunno too!! den she oso say tat will have guys like me but we wun last long cos of my character... care more of frens.. this can be good and bad.. hai~~~

todae durin pe, quite frustratin lor.. ms rivera say us veri naughty.. people over-weight can still run faster den us.. pls la.. is juz a run.. oso nt 2.4.. haha.. maybe she juz tryin 2 say tat person overweight ba.. haha.. me veri bad.. nv even reply her msg 2dae..

ah wang e show finish todae.. e endin nt realli tat gd la.. but ok la.. gtg le.. cos haven bathe.. haha.. so veri smelly!! bb~~

sian ar!!! my maths teacher damn borin!! although he looks funny, mr chong is so much better den him!! ah!! haha.. todae nth new happen.. juz come here 2 write a bit of things ba.. ya.. todae met him, feel weird.. cos like stranger.. luckily gt zhong yong and jun min wif me.. den tat zhong yong hor.. say take 80.. wah lau, i told him wun turn de, he dun believe.. in e end me need 2 walk 2 bus stop.. den walkin 2 bus stop saw hendra.. yjc uni like workin clothes leh.. now need 2 finish up econs and maths tutorial.. bb~~

juz bathe finish.. todae quite a fun day (except 4 lectures and lectures).. todae our physics teacher nt in gd mood.. cos we nv even bring and do our tutorial.. haiya.. den durin econs tutorial, our teacher oso nt happy wif us cos we like did e worst 4 e test.. hai~~~ dunno how i will fare..

den after lunch, me gt 2 high.. haha.. me tried 2 kiss ying sze.. haha.. play play nia.. she damn funny lor.. her reaction like bein force by me.. haha.. keep laughin.. todae like bad guy.. but i realli dunno wat 2 do.. i realli cannot act like nth happen.. dunno wat will happen tml..

hai~~ now have 2 save $$$ 2 return him.. hai~~ cannt stand him, expect me 2 go his house.. wat he tink he is??? nvm.. me need 2 relax or else old le.. juz now dryin hair tat time, suddenly notice my legs realli veri fair.. muz go tannin durin hols le..

todae many hw.. but done none.. better go do le.. bb!!

todae is a day of wonderland 4 me.. haha.. have been slpin like almost e whole day.. i keep feelin tat days have pass in a flash.. maybe cos i'm in sch ba.. when workin, i dreadin e day 2 pass.. esp durin e nite.. i always hope tat nite wld slowly pass.. workin is a chore sometimes except when collectin pay, of course la.. when i dun work at all, e whole day will be so borin.. everything so diff now.. haha.. now i wish this comin wk will pass quickly cos monday is a hol, den dun have 2 go sch!! haha.. and after e followin wk, it will be june hols le.. e time everyone is waitin 4.. and it wld oso be e time tat my poly frens start sch le.. all e best 4 u all!!!

i was tinkin tat 4 all my tests have i put in all my best?? nt all i tink.. esp physics.. maybe it's time 4 me to ready start my engine.. haha.. hope tat results 4 both econs and maths lecture test wld be able 2 reach my expectation.. quite low actually.. as long pass den ok le.. veri diff when i'm in sec sch.. esp 4 maths.. haha.. last time is must get A.. now juz aim 2 pass.. now i have a target 4 myself.. after every test, e followin test muz be a better grade den before.. meanin i have 2 work extra hard.. muz start 2 do tys le.. comparin lk and myself, i feel like a failure.. she is so hardworkin while me.. SLACKIN like anything.. sadz.. haha.. she realli has matured along e way, while i'm still tryin 2 get away fr e past..

now still tryin 2 tink abt my PI.. ah!! dunno wat 2 type... although have my 2 grps, but juz can't tink of wat 2 type.. tml havin heats.. throwin javelin time.. hope it wld be able 2 stuck on e grass.. hai~~ better go concentrate on my PI le.. tata~~

wah!! is been veri long time i nv update my blog le.. someone tot tat i nv update it cos i dun wan him 2 noe wat i'm tinkin.. tat is damn STUPID lor!!! me now alreadi gotten used 2 be in srjc.. quite fun and stress up.. fun as in know many new frens.. esp 1S24!! my class!! u ppl rockz!!! went out wif them once 2 watch movie and den see them play pool.. realli pity kor.. kana hit and pinch by me.. haha.. now veri few le ba... stress up.. cos it seems tat i'm failin my tests alot.. physics and maths C!!! gettin used to.. but quite sad... cos like nv fail maths test before.. hope to get better marks 4 yesterday lecture test lor... TML HAVE ECONS TEST AH!! tired of test and test.. ya hor.. nxt tues have SPA.. ah!!! haha.. muz be tinkin i veri bo liao... these few days, i'm like a diff person.. veri weird.. 1 or 2 days before.. i became moody.. sudden mood swing.. wanted 2 drink and get drunk.. maybe cos i wan 2 4get somethings veri badly... last time lk go drinkin, i still scold her.. but now i feel like drinkin.. kor say tat i get drunk le, den when my loved ones see, will be sad... haha.. me gt no loved ones... dun need oso.. later bring misery 2 me only.. i remember last time when i cry, i will hope 2 have someone beside me to comfort me.. but now i will juz get my pillow or something 2 hug and cry.. y cry?? cos my sis and mom nt around.. veri sad.. e closest ppl nt in s'pore.. make me hate goin back 2 a lifeless home.. and i hate dinner times!!! i dread outside food.. it sucks man!!! i miss home cook food.. esp my mom's cookin.. den my stupid 1st sis.. like 2 say things wifout tinkin.. gettin veri piss off by her.. wah lau.. can't u juz shut up!! in front of other ppl act so gd, but at home damn diff..

todae finally finish nafa!!! can get silver de... can't stand ppl wan 2 win me in e 5 stations.. wah lau.. go compete wif other ppl la.. but kor nv pass.. e guys like fail at standin broad, incline (chin up).. nvm.. jia you!!! sure can.. todae oso go get o lvl cert.. haha.. drag ying sze 2 go wif me... den saw him.. actually nv realli saw him lor.. like juz a flash only.. but overall.. veri messy.. hair long..gt no compliments 4 him lor... haha.. ying sze oso say he veri messy.. den his hair colour veri ATTENTION-SEEKIN... haha veri true.. gettin e cert tat time, saw mrs tan.. she ask me if i still wif him.. den i juz ans no more le.. no more being tied down.. but last time i dun even seem 2 tied down lor... haha.. my frens ask me y i dun wan 2 patch back..i was like.. wat worth?? he dun realli need my presence at all.. tat i wat i tink, and tat is oso wat i believe.. time will heal wounds and time will able 2 allow ppl 2 4get things.. like wat lk say.. y force urself 2 4get?? even more cannot 4get.. den oso in e future, if my kor ask me whether do i still have feelings 4 him, my ans will be NO and nt DUNNO.. ya.. tat day will come de..

june hols come soon le.. great!! can go out wif jc frens, sec frens and pri frens.. den maybe can start 2 buy new clothes.. wish 2 go cut hair.. but still nt long enough 2 change another diff style ba.. den maybe go sun tannin wif frens ba.. ( cos my jc frens saw my legs, and they were sayin my legs veri fair!!! i dun like ah!!!) all 4 todae..