2nd day of orientation!!! damn tired in e mornin.. whole body achin.. haha.. too long nv move abt.. todae did mass dance.. veri funny.. cos like i only remember e startin and e endin.. me and melissa end up veri blur.. after mass dance, den is e college dance.. my guy is MELISSA!! we keep laughin.. cos everybody's movement were so messy.. haha.. she laugh cos e guy beside her move in a weird manner.. haha.. laugh til stomach ache.. abt some time since i laugh like tat... haha.. when they annouce todae end at 2, i was so delighted!!! den pearly ( maybe spelled wrongly) ask me 2 be e pl... i dun wan de.. cos wanna go home slp slp.. but juz so be lor.. discuss abt e performance wif e other hydro PLs 4 e final day.. e names i can remember of them are daniel, yuan long (fr hydro 6 my grp), zac, nicholas (e slacker), maybeline.. e others i dun really remember.. tat nicholas veri funny.. was pullin at some machine, den keep shakin.. it was so RA!! everyone were laughin.. in e end we ended up doin a skit and songs.. but sat muz go back 2 rehearse... TIRED!! but it shld be worth it.. wah todae only eat some cookies and yoghurt.. lk say later when eat alot will gain back e weight.. but i will persever!! i muz do it!!! even when reach home, i was tired, but i didn't slp.. instead at nite, become hyper active.. move here, move there.. den go skip.. and finally go bathe.. haha.. so smelly juz now.. now veri fragrant!! me tokin crap le.. haha.. tat's all 4 xiang ling's crap tok..

1st day in SR!!! a bit difficult 2 wake up leh.. but ok.. nearly late.. haha.. walk 2 sch wif kales.. we found out we diff grps.. =( but still in hydro.. e girls in my grp were great.. actually i feel tat e gals cheer better den e guys... melissa and i were like almost 2gether durin e orientation except 4 breaks.. u noe, tat yi wee, wanted 2 appeal out but lazy 2 get e form 2 get out of sch.. haha.. she ah.. slim down.. face like sharper.. ah.. and oso get 2 noe diane.. she and i wanted 2 learn guitar.. den she asked if e 1st song tat i learn isit JAY CHOU!! definitely!! i didn't noe diane and melissa like jay chou.. haha.. whenever i saw shirley, i wld laugh.. and hui wen oso.. todae learn e college dance.. need 2 dance wif guys.. den e guy who danced wif me say my hand veri hot.. haha.. me veri warm blooded ma!!! both of us like cannot coordinate well.. so end up a bit weird.. my ogl sad wif us.. cos we nv shout enough 4 e cheer.. 1 guy even say he didn't even wan 2 cheer.. so nt on de.. den when they announce hu wan 2 appeal 2 other schs can go.. alot of ppl go leh... den when e orientation end le, it was rainin heavily.. when i reach my house.. need 2 walk a bit of dist den cross e over head bridge.. i like in mtv.. haha.. reach home veri TIRED.. now go watch tv and read newspaper le.. tataz!!

todae finally wake up earlier.. 11 somethin!!! den eat breakfast, bathe le den go bugis le.. me veri lazy, rather take cab den take bus.. when reach there, shan and hn haven reach.. they still dunno how 2 walk 2 bugis fr suntec... finally reach, we go eat swensen.. eat til quite full.. den juz anyhow walk walk lor.. saw this guy wif veri strong perfume.. so smelly.. i call him smelly guy.. haha.. saw him a few times.. veri smelly.. haha.. bought rubber band cos no more at home.. walk till so sIANZ.. ya.. oso saw angelina again.. haha.. saw her 2 2nd time.. wat was i goin 2 say?? ya.. den me went 2 find nail polish.. e lady siao de.. keep sayin "$2.50, fr taiwan" . in e end i hurry up left..me dun like ppl keep being so near me when i look at things.. when me and hn went our house area, we tot of e past when we used 2 walk around.. i still remember tat we wld be holdin on2 a maths bk and tot of e many qns tat ms tay gave us, den will we surely buy things 2 eat, buy rubber bands.. i sure miss those times.. ah.. e cc oso almost ready le..hn still say hope tat there will have library den we can go there 2gether.. but maybe cannot.. most probably movin... tat's e sad thing.. but e happy thing is tat when i moved, hopefully my neighbour is a tan, fit and nt bad lookin guy.. haha.. tml 8am can noe postin le.. wish tat i can get in2 srjc.. go watch tv again.. tata..

2dae grandmom b'day.. everybody gather at grandmom house 2 eat cake.. go eat buffet.. veri full.. goin 2 BURST le.. when went back 2 grandmom house, we heard tat my cousin like goin 2 separate fr his wife.. quite sad.. but sometimes, his wife dunno when 2 say things de.. anyway, oso hope tat he will make decisions correctly lor.. juz now tok 2 lk... tokin abt wat we saw at mag.. get each other "test".. but when i ask her if she monday wan 2 go out, she say dunno.. she gives me a feelin tat she dun wan 2 go.. i gt alot of things 2 tell her, but somehow things have changed ba.. this is one thing i realli wan 2 ask her.. if cam or jas ask u out on mon, will u tell them u dunno?? i have a feelin u wun... nvm.. gettin e hung of this le.. when was e last time i bare out all my feelins 2 a fren?? veri long ago... is there a true fren out there?? i dunno.. i realli dunno.. is there someone 2 let me cry out all my sorrows on?? i doubt so.. feelins all kept THERE.. tired le.. no more crap tokin le..

wah.. todae wake up so late...12 somethin leh... i always wake up at abt 11 somethin de.. den quarrel wif sis and mom... veri stupid la.. my sis veri funny de.. angry wif me, den buy tea egg 4 me 2 eat... nt realli nice.. she oso said e same thing.. cp better, eat one will wan 2 eat another.. todae i eat de, nt nice, eat le, den dun wan 2 eat again.. todae e u r e one, quite nice.. see meide change so much, a bit weird.. haha.. den have 2 go down 2 pass lk e thing.. pass 2 her, i went off hurriedly.. dunno y.. maybe cos nth 2 tok ba.. but she said my cookies were nice!!! when i reach home, my sis and dad said it was nt bad.. my sis even ate 4!!! she rarely eat so many de.. my dad say next time bake softer cookies.. haha.. i try lor.. nth 2 type le.. so tata!!!

todae veri funny.. my eldest sis came home, she was so red tat she look like a cooked lobster... haha.. den she say my face was so fair... eeeeee.. i dun wan.. i oso dunno y it became so fair.. i wan 2 be tan but even when i apply sun-tan lotion, i will see be e same after tat... ah!! unfair.. my sis didn't even apply anythin.. haha.. nvm.. todae did e maths tat i borrow fr lk.. i started wif log, surds... startin a bit blur.. but soon, i gt e hang of it.. it's been so long since i done maths... todae tok 2 ph, i ask if i was too sensitive, den he said yes.. ya.. true.. frens cannot be there 4 u whenever u need them.. they too need 2 have other frens' company.. so now i dun care le.. me do my own things.. but realli, it's been some time since i last went out wif her.. haha.. siao me.. i oso dun dare 2 ask her out.. cos seems like she everyday plans.. bz person... me tml oso will be bz le.. tml goin 2 bake cookies.. i remember e first time i bake them, more den half were burnt.. but e others were nt bad... e second time i bake, it was 2 soft!!! so disgustin.. so now i muz prove 2 my mother tat i can bake cookies.. haha.. anyone out there wan 2 try??? tat time lk have de.. but she only eat a few, den her mom eat finish le.. haha.. u still wan mah?? or too bz?? juz kiddin hor.. hey.. if u gt see this, help me wish goey aeng happy 17th b'day!!! juz ask ask hor.. friday u free anot?? nt free den nvm.. =D juz now tokin 2 hn.. todae at work, she veri bz.. nv even break much.. dun over work hor.. muz take care of urself.. ah.. lk oso.. dun shop til 2 tired hor..

todae go wif hn get her pay.. e people there lose her pay thingy.. lol.. hai~~~ juz now my whole family talkin abt movin house.. i most likely will move 2 amk le.. since i'm no longer learnin piano, e piano will oso be sold... i dun realli wan 2 move house... but who noes when e times come when e condo is ready??? maybe i will love 2 move? fr todae i have decided 2 tok lesser 2 him.. wat he say somehow i will get influence.. now need 2 own self kai qao le.. i realli wonder wat will happen after 6 yrs.. by then will i be in uni?? wat will i be majorin in?? haha.. too fast 2 noe.. slowly tink and consider.. now have someone 2 take over my place of bullyin jr.. haha.. she seems veri fierce.. even fiercer den me.. haha...

todae go wif hn get her pay.. e people there lose her pay thingy.. lol.. hai~~~ juz now my whole family talkin abt movin house.. i most likely will move 2 amk le.. since i'm no longer learnin piano, e piano will oso be sold... i dun realli wan 2 move house... but who noes when e times come when e condo is ready??? maybe i will love 2 move? fr todae i have decided 2 tok lesser 2 him.. wat he say somehow i will get influence.. now need 2 own self kai qao le.. i realli wonder wat will happen after 6 yrs.. by then will i be in uni?? wat will i be majorin in?? haha.. too fast 2 noe.. slowly tink and consider.. now have someone 2 take over my place of bullyin jr.. haha.. she seems veri fierce.. even fiercer den me.. haha...

todae go lk house... feel a bit weird.. maybe cos veri long nv go out wif her so feel a bit like stranger.. i noe i shldn't be jealous of cam and jas.. veri de stupid.. go there suppose 2 do maths de.. but in e end nv.. me veri naughty.. haha.. todae wif him.. quite tirin.. need 2 hong him.. like a little kid.. quite funny.. so todae i quite happy.. but tat time yx say tat if u wan 2 noe whether e person like u, tat person heart will beat veri fast.. but his heart nv beat veri fast.. so i dunno.. haha.. me dun realli care abt tat...

todae... plain day.. only when come house den feel a bit weird... cos now chattin 2 him.. he keep givin veri borin ans... i tryin 2 tok 2 him.. but is like havin an oral exam... i ask qn, he ans... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh... he give ans like maybe, ok lor, ya... a few days ago, like everythin was fine.. now, bad 2 worst!!! eyes veri tired.. now seems like me realli muz go out wif him.. hn workin.. lk nowadays go out wif cam and jas.. is like she rather go out wif them... den go out wif them lor.. e emotions in me r totally mixed... feel like shoutin out.. feel like cryin.. but both wun happen... tired le.. even i wan 2 borrow c maths notes, i nv go 2 her.. instead i go 2 jacq.. weird hor... i'm like actin veri stupid.. but i'm alreadi feelin tat i have no one 2 turn 2 le.. tired le..

yesterday treat sis and mom watch booey man.. wah.. first time i watch scary movie, open my eyes e longest.. cos nt scary mah.. but gt one new scary movie comin soon.. chinese one.. dunno shld go watch anot.. cos when veri scary, i surely close my eyes.. very waste $$$ hor.. now like no romance movies 2 watch.. actually i rather watch comedy or romance movies... hai~~ get pay le, but haven buy anythin 4 myself.. hopin 2 find a jeans skirt tat i like.. maybe see one of these days den go find ba.. jr very fast.. todae get pay, todae buy things le.. i find things a bit weird.. cos he like change le.. suddenly treat me veri good.. nv keep askin me out le.. dunno isit someone tell him something anot?? but nvm.. like tat good oso..

last nite chat wif a fren.. i feel tat he realli change le.. but is 4 e good.. matured and less bad tempered.. instead i feel tat i'm still e same.. unreasonable, reckless, bad tempered and stubborn.. tat few hrs tat i tok 2 him, i feel tat i learnt alot.. really alot.. thankz veri much!! seein him changed, i muz oso change... need 2 try veri hard.. hope u will be there 2 encourage lor.. haha.. such a positive tinkin.. but who noes?? maybe dun have.. oooo.. cannot be negative tinkin too... so many things 2 change.. tat nite was e very few days where he was e one tokin while i was e one tokin.. is good 2 hear tat... somethin he say abt likin someone.. if u like tat person, ur heart will beat veri fast.. and i noe tat day will come so 4 me.. haha.. actually he is someone who tell me things tat i will really listen.. or shld i say y i nv mature faster?? is good 2 have someone there 2 advice u things, but everytime like tat, will get use 2 le.. he also e 2nd person hu ask me go learn 2 do house work.. hai~~ ya, true.. need 2... oso time 2 start playin piano le.. dunno wat 2 type le.. so tat's 4 now lor..

todae at far east saw hn, she look much happier den she was at breadtalk.. den me, hn and shan went 2 eat.. seem like veri long nv tok le.. actually quite true.. hn nowadays keep workin.. den after went walkin around far east.. heart ache leh.. cos cannot buy.. nt becos no $$$ but mom say i bought 2 much clothes le.. see veri nice skirts, they like tryin 2 tell me "BUY ME, BUY ME!!!" muz resist e temptation.. ya hor.. need 2 edit things tat i wrote yesterday.. my fren change after graduatin fr pr sch.. sorry hor.. me nv see properly.. todae first time shop wif shan, but actually is window shop.. den me sian say better get a hobby.. so go learn how 2 fold xin xin (hearts).. at least i gt things 2 do better den i waste time doin nth.. shan good teacher leh.. me learn fr her very quickly.. hai, cos i noe somethin bad happenin.. but me veri stubborn, wun go reverse things.. very fan lor.. as if he even understand.. i do wat i like, i dun like e idea tat he keep askin me out... i veri reckless oso.. i told him, i gt hobby le, den he say forgettin him is my hobby.. me veri angry and reply negative things back.. fed up le.. sure cannot last de... i muz try nt 2 tok 2 him.. but... dunno... dun wan 2 tok abt him le... actually i wanted 2 do cross stitch, but like veri difficult.. me is a person hu has no patience.. so better dun do tat lor.. dunno y i like 2 fold things.. last yr fold stars, this yr fold hearts.. den next yr fold wat??? birds??? maybe leh.. den can put in a box.. i found out tat when i fold things, i tend 2 cool down alot.. maybe bang all my frustration on e paper.. goin 2 nine le.. need 2 go watch tv le...

todae goin siao le!!!! wan 2 go out but cannot find ppl go out wif me.. hai~~~ actually have 1 person.. but i dunno la.. i juz nv ask him de... i noe i veri de bad.. but i juz scared 2 go out wif him.. need 2 give excuses 2 go out.. still muz tell mom where i go, go wif hu.. aahhhhhhhhh.. goin siao!!! todae go see one last time veri good fren de frendster account.. very sad.. cos he oso say he change le after graduated.. sad cos like frens no more le.. last time in sec 2 or 3, keep tokin veri long de.. den oso play cannon in d 4 him 2 listen.. at tat time he oso encouraged me 2 keep practisin til good.. but no more le.. me oso nowadays rarely play tat song le.. he always give me alot of advice in many things... last time when i sad, i will call him and tell him de.. but now.. hai~~~ i realli miss e times when we chat.. actually, among my gd frens, he's e one tat i can tell almost everything.. now i dunno how 2 keep contact wif him lor.. nt tat i dun have his no but i juz dunno wat 2 tok 2 him if i msg or call him.. let's everything go by nature ba.. hopefully in e followin yr i maybe happen 2 see him on e streets and we may recognise each other... but who noes....

todae keep tryin 2 get through e JAE thingy... but e stupid thing is so slow and now cannot go in lor!!! so fan lor.. cos tat is nt 2 only tat is so frustratin.. him lor.. make me so angry cos i dun wan 2 go out.. i haven finish wat i'm doin i oso dun wan.. y cannot understand how i feel?? tat's y i feel like goin back 2 square one.. now i wonder how 2 last 4 even 1 mth... veri stupid.. if i go poly, means i need 2 work realli hard 2 get int2 e top few % den can get into local u.. but wif this goin on, i dunno i can anot.. AHHHHHHHHHH.... veri fan!!!! now eyes veri de pain.. but he sure dunno... hai~~~ i feel i like a bad girl lor.. keep hurtin him.. dunno y cannot treat him better... like things go by itself lor..

finally results out!!! i did better den expected.. den go celebrate by goin out wif lk 2 eat crystal jade.. at least i get 3A2.. so i'm quite happy.. e most shockin is tat my eng get B3!!! i was so shocked tat i ask my teacher help me count my L1R5 marks!!! at least i can get into Jc.. but my parents keep askin me y nt go poly?? i was like i dun wan 2 go in2 something tat i'm nt sure 2 study lor.. gettin 19 points cannot go e jc i wan, but i still aim 2 get int2 a jc.. my teacher ask me 2 appeal 2 nyjc wif my guzheng, but in e end after hrs of considerin, i decided nt 2.. i dun wan 2 be in gu zheng again.. hai~~~ now a bit stress.. now cos of choosin jc and courses.. anyway i can't believe he gt e same points as me!!! but he veri clever.. actually i quite happy 4 him cos durin o lvl he like nv spend time studyin.. actually i oso wish he can get in2 a jc but i doubt he will. so all e best 2 him!!! but i dun tink he will ever see this.. haha.. i'm oso very happy 4 lk cos she get 10 points!!! when i saw her number on e slide of top students, i was so happy.. but i suddenly tot abt how abt me?? den i nearly cried.. so scared.. den when get results, so relieve cos at least can get into a jc and oso get 3A2.. hai~~~ when 2dae i saw him, i dun dare 2 look at him lor.. dunno y.. veri stupid hor.. maybe scared later i will be more sad.. hai~~ so stupid.. dun wan 2 tink le.. haha.. my auntie treatin us eat cos she won 4D.. can eat again..but will fat.. so tml better drink more lime juice!!!